i passed the eligibility test for SAE. i'm gonna enroll for the september intake. i do feel as if i am procrastinating as i could jump straight to this month's intake. when i think procrastinate i think sin. becauase mother always reminded me not to do so. anyways she came over today, and suprisingly no war, she commented on the sausages i fried, like big deal anyway, complementing me sure felt like i was 10, and it was my first attempt frying sausages or something, that took me suprise, i was ready for a verbal tussle as usual. perhaps she is only aware that her previous words with her son have been down right discouraging. i analyze my emotional state after everytime we end up in a quarrel, i realise my self esteem is always affected. she can get real anal at times, probably the most anal person i speak to on a frequent enough basis. she slaps me with reality, but i do feel she's being a little too down to earth, she speaks with so much depth that i tend to imagine the worst outcome to everything. now, i just hope to reach an equllibrim with her.