its strange that everytime this particular orthodox catholic priest walks into my house, the dog never lets out a single bark. i've known my dog to flinch at the slightest noise or unknown smell from outside the door. i feel it's the presence he emits, that is so solemn, i feel a peace of mind whenever we speak. i feel like i am restoring my faith to god even though i have been unable to close my eyes in prayer these past few nights. its not like i woke up one day and said 'oh i found god again', these feelings and realisations were built up. i doubt i'll be going to mass for a long time anyway. but i just think this post is worth mentioning and re-reading in the times to come.

anyways i came up with a script, pretty ideal script so i thought, until i mentioned it to a friend, he said it was very similar to a bon jovi MTV, heh.