i never felt like not doing anything this much before. had one look at my dj set up and turned the other cheek. i don't find time to do things coz i'm so free when i'm not supposed to be, my aimless search for entertaiment last 24/7. people who are actually busy and stressed from work, actually find time to do the things they like. even when im so free, i'm not motivated to do anything. if this carries on then i will have to re-build my self esteem again, what i'm lacking right now, and i dont want that. i've been neglecting my school notes and lessons a lot. but i seem more comfortable living by the day, still i'm not dreaming of anything.