none of that fancy yakk yakk write like how you speak fuckers.

im a bit angst about the recording session with a 2 man band later, because i know there will be problems and obstacles to face. the equipment in studio 1 is faulty, the drum kit in studio 1 is un-tuned and one of the symbols is cracked. actually i'm not very keen on becoming a recording engineer, i kinda lost interest already, it sucks when something or the last and only thing you wanna do becomes a drag, and thats the reason why i aint pulling the plug on this course, because in fact there isn't anything else i wanna or could do, and that my friends, i call the worst feeling in the world. i'm in this assignment with 2 other classmates, one is permanently working night shift the other is out drunk right fucking now. i just hope they make it on time, i think i probably have it easier then the rest. mom said something to me that made a hell lot of sense in the car the other night. 'people who are busy always find time to do other things' and 'people who have nothing to do usually say they have no time to do other things' i think not doing anything productive in the long run is a very bad habit, i cannot imagine myself in re-service, even worst, an overseas exercise in wallaby, australia! i'm so used to waking up late for school, so used to spending my days at home the entire day, so used to being content not going out for makan(unless if its for a beer) all i do most days is go down to the shops to buy fags. come to think of it, once i get my allwoance i spent most of it in 2 nights, and the remainder is only enough to sustain me the rest of the week, minimal. thats why i say i'm always broke and is seldom out, and the last things im bothering about now is getting a part time job or quitting the smokes. i've never had a phone line under my name, let alone even pay for any bills. but i've been trying real hard not to ask for compensation for inevitable bills, such as a visit to the doc, or transport. i forgot what both my insurance plans cover me for and about, its like i dont even care anymore.

the guys at city16 screwed up my order, they had to re-send the entire parcel, took customer service 1 fucking week to acknowledge that my records hadn't arrived.